One thing that not a lot of people know about me is that I’m actually deaf in my left ear. When I was younger, doctors noticed that my hearing was declining in my left ear and it wasn’t improving. I don’t really remember when it all started but I just remember having to go get hearing tests every couple of months. For a while, I had a big bulky hearing aid. I hated that thing but I knew it helped me hear better so I didn’t complain too much.
I remember the day when I was sitting in the same doctor’s room that I was always placed in to get my ears checked. It was right after getting my hearing test done. The doctor came in, sat down, and just sighed. Uh oh. Then he told me, “Amanda, you can take your hearing aid out. You don’t need it anymore.” I happily took it out not fully understanding what he meant. I was around eight years old. I was just happy not to have to wear that thing anymore. Then I heard him explain to my mom that he could see from my hearing tests that my left ear was completely deaf and the hearing aid wouldn’t help anymore.
Living Life With A Deaf Ear
Being deaf in one ear might sound quite scary but it’s not that bad. There are days when I don’t even notice. Most of the time, I literally forget that my left ear isn’t processing sound. Then there are times when it does cause problems and lots of anxiety. Let me explain.
I can’t really tell that I’m deaf in my left ear when I’m in a room with just a couple of people because sound travels. It’s not like I never hear anything on my left side. Somebody could sit to the left to me and as long as they’re not whispering, I can hear and understand them without a problem. The problem comes in when I’m in a loud and busy place. For example, stores. The reasoning is, if there’s chaos to the right side of me, that’s all I’m going to be able to hear.
Being In Public
There was a time that I was at the mall with my friend and she was to the left of me talking about something dramatic so I was making sure to pay close attention. When we were in the parking lot and when we first walked in, I could hear her just fine. Then all of a sudden, the only thing I could hear was all of the chattering and noises to the right of me. I looked to my friend, her lips were moving but I couldn’t clearly understand what she was saying anymore so I stopped. I kind of laughed and was like, “I can’t believe I forgot to tell you this, but I’m deaf in my left ear and I can’t hear you because it’s so loud. Can you stand on my right side?” That was a great storytime. Even I forgot until that happened.
The Struggle Of Being Sick
The scariest part of being deaf in one ear is when I get sick. You know when your ears get plugged? Well, I only have one good ear so if that goes down, I’m pretty much deaf. I was a very sickly child and always had ear infections which now that I think about it, is most likely the culprit for going deaf in my left ear.
There was a day when I was sick and I wanted to go watch tv with my family. When I sat down, I couldn’t hear the movie. I asked my mom to turn it up and I noticed that I could barely even hear myself. My mom kept turning it up but it didn’t really help. I lost my mind. I started freaking out because I thought my hearing was gone for good. My mom assured me that it was just because I was sick and I would get my hearing back.
I also get dizzy spells. It happened more often when I was younger but the doctors said its most likely just because of the imbalance in my ears. They can get quite severe and in the most random times. They don’t happen as often anymore, thank goodness.
I still have to get occasional hearing tests for my right ear to make sure that side doesn’t start to lose hearing as well but so far so good! I do want to start learning sign language though just to be safe. It’s one of those things that if the worst does happen, I want to be somewhat prepared even though I don’t think one could possibly be prepared for that.
That pretty much sums up my life with one deaf ear! If you have any questions, let me know! I also made a youtube video summarizing what it’s like. I’ll leave it below so you can check it out!
That’s all for today’s post! Thank you for reading. ♥